22 June, 2006

DAY 479

The truth is that I was never willing to trust you completely "again". After that time...which I think was the very first time...and see? I´m not even sure about it. When it comes to you and faitfulness nothing is for sure...but I can say that´s actually the only thing for sure!

People are humans, capable of making mistakes, and everyone is innocent until is proven guilty. However, people sometimes motivate you to suspect. And you masterfully proved twice to be unworthy of trust.

Sometimes I miss the love we shared once, but why do I miss it, if part of love is also trust, reliability and loyalty. So what am I missing, If at the end what I miss the most wasn´t there anymore...wasn´t there since 479 days ago.

It´s so easy to get confused. I lost my faith in you long ago...after you cancelled the emotional expressions I was so used to...when I wasn´t free to express mine...so could it be that I also grew out of love... how can you love someone you don´t even trust? It´s so easy to get confused. I was confused indeed, holding on something that wasn´t real.

Letting me out of confusion is of great help to move on; but the anger, the feeling of emptiness, the sorrow and pain and the long nights without sleep are all REAL!


Anyway, if this happens that often how come they don´t make it illegal, why they don´t make trials on these events. The most we can get are great movies and songs...that's all and its fine, but sometimes is not enough, is it?




Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined

And since you have been gone...
And question my own questions on and on

So tell me now, tell me now
Why you're so far away
When I'm still not so...

You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What went wrong?
been wondering for days and hours
It's clear it isn't here where you belong

Anyhow, anyhow
I wish you both all the best
I hope you get along

But you don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words “I'm sorry”
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

Open heart
Open heart
It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart